California

One thing that we have been preparing ourselves for during this time was disappointment, having the possibility of a child and losing that. We had our first bit this week.

We were contacted by a mother about a month ago about her sweet little girl. The girl was already in the foster care system so that automatically cut our chances of being able to have her in half. We knew that chances were slim but, because it was the mothers wishes that we have her, we decided to pursue this avenue.

We talked to her caseworker to get the information of what we needed to do on our end to make this work. We needed to get our duel state licensing started and we needed to come to California for the hearing. That is what we did.

We decided that if we came out for the hearing that it would not be the only reason for our trip. We knew there was still only a 50/50 chance that we would get the baby so we scheduled our 'vacation' to see family and friends in the area the same week as the hearing. Clever right? That way if the hearing didn't go our way it wasn't waisted.

We showed up to the visitation that we were supposed to have with the girl the day before the hearing to be told by the caseworker that she changed her mind, that she had no idea why we would come out, and that she was not even going to put our names up for consideration at the hearing. Thanks! That would have been great information for us to know two weeks ago when we bought the tickets right after she told us that we needed to be here on this date!

We were heart broken. Lots of tears followed! We were prepared for a negative outcome but we weren't prepared for it to happen this way. We are so blessed to have friends and family in the area that let us vent to and helped calm us down.

We know that this is the way that the Lord wants it to be. This little girl is supposed to be with the family she will be with, and there is another child that is supposed to be in our family. We have faith that everything will be ok in the end. It will all be worth it.